3w3d to go and I am about as uncomfortable and miserable (but loving it) as I can be. Nursery is moving along- just need some final decorations and a mom’s touch. Here are some pics along with the most recent chubby cheek US pic 🙂
Time is flying!! Nursery is slow going due to house remodeling projects we decided to finish first- suckers for punishment. My best gals started the baby shower planning and they plan on dressing like Thing 1 and Thing 2. Epic. They say they’re going with footy pjs but by the time it rolls around I bet money they’ll be opting for red shirts and a wig they can take off. Either way, I love these ladies and couldn’t ask for better friends. The theme is obviously Dr.Seuss and it is going to be amazing. We also decided to do a man friendly one. Hubby is in like Flynn. Free food and a ton of women= happy man!!
Going to get that nursery started asap. Meanwhile, I will be eating Golden Grahams (newest must have) man they get soggy fast!!!
Hoping to catch a movie with hubby this weekend but with all the work we have ahead us I don’t know if it’s in our stars. Drawing closer to the bar opening as well and dealing with these contractors have not become any easier. I loathe these guys and I have snapped several times. It puts them in check for maybe a few days and then I have to flip the bitch switch again. I intended opening Feb.1. I’ll be lucky if it’s March 1st now.
Anywho- back to the house, all we have left really is a full bathroom makeover. Like serious gut and redo. We were going to pass on the idea and buy a new home but we’ve decided to wait a year or two before stabbing a for sale sign in the yard. We love our home now but we look forward to being away from the city and the university. Hubby needs a break. After working on 6 off 3 rotations for 10 years on a midnight shift, he needs a quiet place to chill and not hear sirens, Notre Dame games (seriously can hear PA system in our yard on game day), thumping stereos, or people mowing their lawn at 8am when he didn’t even hit a pillow until 7am.
Here is my most recent belly pic:
This boy is a MOVER!!! He boogies half the day away!! My anterior placenta hasn’t dulled the feeling much at all. Maybe he kicked it out of the way hahhaha
We are convinced he’ll be a bad ass like his daddy.
Gave the IVF clinic a ring to say hello to my favorite nurse and to keep her updated. I love them! So sweet to want to stay in touch like that instead of “K you’re pregnant! Bye bye!”.
Off to eat a brownie the size of my couch with a glass of milk the size of a water tower and then off to bed so I can wake up every hour with hip pain or public bone pain. (Yeah- that feels grrrrrrrrreat)
Man did I bounce around in this blog or what? Zero structure. I guess this is what my brain is like right now- scattered and all over the place. I need a new pair of converse- red.
That is all.
Kisses to those who love me and a finger to those who don’t.
And a huge wish of luck and love to the ladies’ blogs I still follow who are still TTC.
Until I have time to blog via iPhone again— be real, be good, or be good at it.
Time seems to be flying and we haven’t even begun the nursery. Ugh. Between holidays, opening a bar, and every other day duties, I am exhausted!!! Weight gain has been minimal, I have a nasty cold, I don’t have the patience to copy and paste the weekly update things I read (but my answers have stayed the same so I would be boring to catch up on) EX: my rings are in, belly button in, of course I’m moody because I am dealing with
thieves contractors, we all have the same app to say how big baby is but mine is measuring 5 days ahead of schedule so a big mango he is, no stretch marks, and so on. Here is my most recent bump pic. I swear my friends weren’t showing this much so early but they say everybody is different! Super excited it’s a boy and can’t wait to start decorating baby Silas’ room!!!!
I made it this far. 16 weeks. But when does the worrying stop? The wondering if there is still another little heartbeat inside of me. Met with the therapist at OB practice. She was a flake. Did me ZERO good. She was lame. I honestly question what degree she holds. She asked me random questions about family members and husband and how we met, what I do for a living, blah blah blah. I managed to say in one sentence how the anxiety consumes me. We didn’t really discuss it past that. She handed me a shit CD to listen to and said to practice the exercise in it once daily. How bout you blow me once daily. (Sorry but honestly speaking my mind here).
Anywho…. Happy that I’m in a position to worry about being pregnant but not happy that I cannot let go and just enjoy this moment. Am I crazy? Until then I will snuggle my pug and hope for the best that baby is doing good. UGH
How far along: 13w3d
Baby’s size: approx. 3″ long. About the size of a peach. (I assume they mean balled up? Or maybe the length of a peach? I’ve eaten peaches much bigger than this.
Total weight gain: have no clue. Last appointment at 10 weeks I was up 3.4lbs from where I was when I left IVF doctor. I don’t own a scale. Never have. I go by inches. And so far I’m doing pretty ok. I’m sure that shit will change some day. Until then, enjoying the minor bloat? Poof? Tummy? Intestines migrating north to make room for uterus? Hell I don’t know.
Maternity clothes: Nope. Been managing with hair ties and belly bands. My favorite wardrobe choice= adorbs shirt with jacket or cardigan combo/or long sweater and my favorite rider boots over a pair of comfy stretch pants. Time to go buy more boots :))) darn.
Stretch marks: so far so good. If it happens, I’ll be researching laser correction. Not really the vain type but I do prefer bikinis. And don’t get me wrong- I will cherish each and every mark this baby gives me (for the short time I decide to keep those marks)
Sleep: I fall out in less than 2 minutes but wake up 2-3 times to pee. For the most part I sleep 8-10 hours but sometimes I can’t get back to sleep once my eyes open.Woke up at 5:45 on Saturday morning and that was it. Up all day till 11.
Symptoms/Feeling: tired “ish” but nothing too crazy. No nausea or morning sickness–just the occassional awesome dry heave. And speaking of feeling…. I CANNOT feel my fundus!! Is there a fundus amongus? I know how to and what to feel for but can’t find it!!!! Another bullet to add to the “Why Tina Worries” list. Am I the only one?
Best moment of this week: doctor appointment in 2 days- I’m sure that will be my highlight as I hope to be reassured that the heart is still beating. I’m sick with worry. 2nd moment- signing papers for liquor license for the new bar and grill I’m opening. Yay!!!
Miss anything: buttoning my silver jeans and not being scared to have sex or the big “O”. Don’t ask me why. I know that doc said fine but I’m still nervous and apprehensive. Gve in to hubs once. Thank God he is patient and understands my anxiety.
Movement: I’m sure the babe is cutting a rug in there but I doubt I feel it. Every once in awhile I feel a blurb but I’ll chalk it up to gas :0
Food cravings: Italiano. All. Day. Everyday. Maybe some Mexican food in between. (And fruity pebbles). Hell I want everything.
Anything making you queasy or sick: just my ultra sensitive gag reflex. No nausea to warn me it’s coming though. Just a certain smell or for no reason at all I’ll dry heave for a second and feel fine afterwards. Weird
Have you started to show yet: not really. Can’t wait to though- maybe it would reassure me that things are moving along appropriately? Doubtful hah!
Gender: It’s a mystery still. Debating on finding out through chromosome test. Hubby thinks ultrasound would be more exciting for the reveal. Personally, I wanna know what to start shopping for!!!! Well, when I feel less scared about this then I’ll start shopping.
Labor signs: ummmmm no
Belly button in or out: In, and reallllllly hoping it stays that way. Eeeewwww
Wedding rings on or off: On.
Happy or moody most of the time: Those who know me say I’m moody but honestly I think I’m overall happy with a dash of fear and anxiety. Husband says I just seem more sensitive and cry more. Not like a mad or sad cry- like a “oh wow that commercial for Kleenex was so sweet” kinda cry.
Looking forward to: Actually showing and being less worried about this pregnancy ending. When will it end??!!
Purchases for baby: A handful of Dr.Seuss books and stuffed animals to go with the Seuss themed nursery 🙂 a friend of ours does interior design and I am SO excited to see what she comes up with. Just got a beautiful solid wood/ painted white armoire to go in there. How much? FREE!!! Gotta love friends. And speaking of purchases- I hope they make a toast costume for babies because hubby and I are bacon and eggs this year for Halloween. Next year we shall add toast 🙂
I had my last appointment with RE which finished with a big tear filled hug. Even HE was teary eyed!! He was so awesome. We will miss him dearly. The ultrasound was amazing! Little babe was raisin’ the roof! Like seriously. Both hands up in the air with the arms pushing up and down haha. Loved it. There was a whole lot of squirming too when the tech was trying to get measurements. We’re over the moon. I guess it’s time to make myself a client at my photography biz and come up with a crafty way to announce the news. Not sure what angle I’m gonna go with. Most likely humor as it best fits the hubby and I. We are a tad on the dork level and spend most of our time acting like fools so…..
Time to say cheese for myself!!! And time to put the timer and tripod to use (which I’ve never used either cuz I hate tripods) can’t wait to post pics!!!
Oh, and a side note…
My biggest baby and first sweet chubby love- Murphy, turned 8 today. We celebrated accordingly and spoiled him rotten with table scraps and a puppy sundae. Our other fur baby was happy to participate.
Heard that beautiful heartbeat at 120bpm!!! Measures came back right on track as well. So I am 7w2d now and hoping our next ultrasound on September 23rd is the same good news. I have to thank my guardian angel for this one. Meanwhile, no nausea unless I get hungry, still the mild cramping from time to time but nothing painful or horrible. I fall asleep easy but I’m up to the toilet 1-3 times a night an if I wake up around 5 am I’m hungry and can’t fall back asleep. It’s so funny how you hope and pray for this day to come so you can be happy and have a breath of relief. Instead I am just worrying along the way and hoping all goes well and overanalyzing every symptom, pinch, or twang waiting for doom. So hard to snap out of that mindset! The most amazing detail of this pregnancy is the current due date. Yes it can change, yes the baby may come early or late, BUT it was still amazing to hear “April 22nd”. That is my most loved and amazing Grandmother’s birthday. She passed away last year and always said that we will be parents but it will happen on God’s time. Well I think she had a hand in this one. I love her and miss her so much so maybe that is why IVF didn’t work the first time. Maybe it was meant to be that my child would share the birthday of such an amazing human being. Maybe my grandma really is my guardian angel and looking down on me. I’ve always had a hard time grasping that whole concept but maybe this was her way of saying “HEY!! I am here!!!”