6dp3dt WHY did I POAS???

Dumb is the only word I can think of. “Of course it’s too early” is what I keep telling myself as I held the BFN in my hand. “Wait is that a line turning the subtraction sign into a + ?” No it’s just my eyes going crossed as I stand on the bathroom sink holding the pee pee wand at an angle between the sunlight and the light above sink. Ho hum. It’s too early. But I read SO MANY women getting the “faintest of faint” or “squinter” lines and figured I’d be just as lucky. And even knowing all this I am still bummed out.
So do I hold out now or do I POAS everyday until beta?
The jury is out still.