26-27 weeks

Time is flying!! Nursery is slow going due to house remodeling projects we decided to finish first- suckers for punishment. My best gals started the baby shower planning and they plan on dressing like Thing 1 and Thing 2. Epic. They say they’re going with footy pjs but by the time it rolls around I bet money they’ll be opting for red shirts and a wig they can take off. Either way, I love these ladies and couldn’t ask for better friends. The theme is obviously Dr.Seuss and it is going to be amazing. We also decided to do a man friendly one. Hubby is in like Flynn. Free food and a ton of women= happy man!!
Going to get that nursery started asap. Meanwhile, I will be eating Golden Grahams (newest must have) man they get soggy fast!!!
Hoping to catch a movie with hubby this weekend but with all the work we have ahead us I don’t know if it’s in our stars. Drawing closer to the bar opening as well and dealing with these contractors have not become any easier. I loathe these guys and I have snapped several times. It puts them in check for maybe a few days and then I have to flip the bitch switch again. I intended opening Feb.1. I’ll be lucky if it’s March 1st now.
Anywho- back to the house, all we have left really is a full bathroom makeover. Like serious gut and redo. We were going to pass on the idea and buy a new home but we’ve decided to wait a year or two before stabbing a for sale sign in the yard. We love our home now but we look forward to being away from the city and the university. Hubby needs a break. After working on 6 off 3 rotations for 10 years on a midnight shift, he needs a quiet place to chill and not hear sirens, Notre Dame games (seriously can hear PA system in our yard on game day), thumping stereos, or people mowing their lawn at 8am when he didn’t even hit a pillow until 7am.
Here is my most recent belly pic:

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This boy is a MOVER!!! He boogies half the day away!! My anterior placenta hasn’t dulled the feeling much at all. Maybe he kicked it out of the way hahhaha
We are convinced he’ll be a bad ass like his daddy.
Gave the IVF clinic a ring to say hello to my favorite nurse and to keep her updated. I love them! So sweet to want to stay in touch like that instead of “K you’re pregnant! Bye bye!”.
Off to eat a brownie the size of my couch with a glass of milk the size of a water tower and then off to bed so I can wake up every hour with hip pain or public bone pain. (Yeah- that feels grrrrrrrrreat)
Man did I bounce around in this blog or what? Zero structure. I guess this is what my brain is like right now- scattered and all over the place. I need a new pair of converse- red.
That is all.
Kisses to those who love me and a finger to those who don’t.
And a huge wish of luck and love to the ladies’ blogs I still follow who are still TTC.
Until I have time to blog via iPhone again— be real, be good, or be good at it.

Nursery fun!

Before we knew if baby was boy or girl, I had my heart set on a Dr.Seuss theme because I loved the books growing up and I’m not a huge fan of the standard animal themes. Here is a sneak peek of the ideas we are incorporating

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The walls will be painted like this picture:

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Can’t wait to start painting! Still searching for that perfect dresser to match the armoire. I’ve found plenty of dressers but they haven’t been wide enough for a changing pad. Anywho, I can’t wait to post pics of the final finish!!! Operation nursery begins next weekend after we get through this nasty weather. Not feeling like driving around in this crap!

24 weeks and suffering

MAH GAWD the heartburn!!! Son of a mother ;@%#ing €%#£¥!!!!!!
So the doc “prescribes” me Nexium at a tune of $79 AFTER insurance. The pharmacist asst proceeds to inform me it is available over the counter.
What
The
Fuuuuuu_________?????
beyond irritated. So the manufacturer produces the same drug available by prescription or OTC one for $278/one for $12.99??????? Am I missing something or is this asst a goof? I’d call the doc but office is closed. Son of uhhhh beotch.
Sorry for ranting but I am SICK of belching and puking stomach acid and sitting up half the night because of evil heartburn. Enough is enough.
And here is my happy pic for the day to keep from strangling somebody- me and my Christmas pug (incase you didn’t get a card)

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20 weeks!!!

Time seems to be flying and we haven’t even begun the nursery. Ugh. Between holidays, opening a bar, and every other day duties, I am exhausted!!! Weight gain has been minimal, I have a nasty cold, I don’t have the patience to copy and paste the weekly update things I read (but my answers have stayed the same so I would be boring to catch up on) EX: my rings are in, belly button in, of course I’m moody because I am dealing with thieves contractors, we all have the same app to say how big baby is but mine is measuring 5 days ahead of schedule so a big mango he is, no stretch marks, and so on. Here is my most recent bump pic. I swear my friends weren’t showing this much so early but they say everybody is different! Super excited it’s a boy and can’t wait to start decorating baby Silas’ room!!!!

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17 weeks and no blood test?

Yep. Last week’s pic:) Stoked to have come this far but confused as to why doctor doesn’t feel it necessary to do any tests for abnormalities. He says he likes to wait until he has reason to believe it is necessary. M’kay. I’m a worrier! That should be reason enough. He said we could if we wanted to but honestly I felt dumb at that point to insist upon it. He said if he sees any precursors to any conditions on ultrasound then he will go ahead with further testing. His practice goes with the combo of holistic and conventional- with that being said he believes the waiting on results will simply cause me unnecessary stress. Boo. I figured it was a no brainer being 40yrs old and an IVF patient but I guess not. Dang it!!! I also secretly wanted to know gender of our bugaboo too. Alas I shall wait until December 1st to find out if baby is boy or girl. Drats!!!
As far as how I feel? Super I suppose. Not getting sick, nauseous, dizzy, or moody. However…… I “may” have a bladder infection. Good. Times. Aside from peeing all the time (sometimes 3 trips in 30 minutes) I have a dull lower backache. I thought all that was par for the course but to be safe I rang the office and mentioned it and nurse said, “ohhhhhhhh, hmmmmmm, yea go ahead and give me your pharmacy info and I’ll send order for labs to blah blah blah and let doctor C know.” I asked if she thought I really had one and she said it sure sounds like it. So, pending urinalysis, I may or may not be treating that with some antibiotics tomorrow. Suuuuuuper.
Other pregnancy facts in a nutshell:
My rings are on, my belly button is in, I sleep great, I’m not moody, I can eat anything, I don’t crave anything, we all know what size my baby is if we all pay attention to the same apps :), my weight gain is barely there, I won’t talk about signs of labor until it happens, and those lists are way too much for me to fill out every week with all I have going on right now.
Recap of hectic life-
I own my own photography business which keeps me busy on weekends and editing on evenings.
I work part time at a jewelry store because a friend owns it and well…. I love jewelry.
I am opening a bar/restaurant extremely close to Notre Dame and contractors really piss me off.
Photography will probably get cut down quite a bit- maybe a session or 2 a week mayyyyyybe. I love it so I will never give it up. Jewelry store can kiss my ass because the bar will consume me no doubt.
BUT I love hectic and I love goals!!!! I look forward to this business and I am excited to call it my own (well half mine half partner’s)
After taking week 16 belly shot, I mildly freaked thinking “am
I porking out or showing too soon???” Even had to Google some other 17 week bellies to see. Especially after hearing from so many girls how they didn’t even start showing until they were 6months along. Well lah dee frickin dah!!! Not being a hater but secretly was hoping to be the same way. Ok. I’m hatin 🙂
Tahhhh dahhhhh

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Sweet 16

I made it this far. 16 weeks. But when does the worrying stop? The wondering if there is still another little heartbeat inside of me. Met with the therapist at OB practice. She was a flake. Did me ZERO good. She was lame. I honestly question what degree she holds. She asked me random questions about family members and husband and how we met, what I do for a living, blah blah blah. I managed to say in one sentence how the anxiety consumes me. We didn’t really discuss it past that. She handed me a shit CD to listen to and said to practice the exercise in it once daily. How bout you blow me once daily. (Sorry but honestly speaking my mind here).
Anywho…. Happy that I’m in a position to worry about being pregnant but not happy that I cannot let go and just enjoy this moment. Am I crazy? Until then I will snuggle my pug and hope for the best that baby is doing good. UGH

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Weekly update- WEEK 13

How far along: 13w3d

Baby’s size: approx. 3″ long. About the size of a peach. (I assume they mean balled up? Or maybe the length of a peach? I’ve eaten peaches much bigger than this.

Total weight gain: have no clue. Last appointment at 10 weeks I was up 3.4lbs from where I was when I left IVF doctor. I don’t own a scale. Never have. I go by inches. And so far I’m doing pretty ok. I’m sure that shit will change some day. Until then, enjoying the minor bloat? Poof? Tummy? Intestines migrating north to make room for uterus? Hell I don’t know.

Maternity clothes: Nope. Been managing with hair ties and belly bands. My favorite wardrobe choice= adorbs shirt with jacket or cardigan combo/or long sweater and my favorite rider boots over a pair of comfy stretch pants. Time to go buy more boots :))) darn.

Stretch marks: so far so good. If it happens, I’ll be researching laser correction. Not really the vain type but I do prefer bikinis. And don’t get me wrong- I will cherish each and every mark this baby gives me (for the short time I decide to keep those marks)

Sleep: I fall out in less than 2 minutes but wake up 2-3 times to pee. For the most part I sleep 8-10 hours but sometimes I can’t get back to sleep once my eyes open.Woke up at 5:45 on Saturday morning and that was it. Up all day till 11.

Symptoms/Feeling: tired “ish” but nothing too crazy. No nausea or morning sickness–just the occassional awesome dry heave. And speaking of feeling…. I CANNOT feel my fundus!! Is there a fundus amongus? I know how to and what to feel for but can’t find it!!!! Another bullet to add to the “Why Tina Worries” list. Am I the only one?

Best moment of this week: doctor appointment in 2 days- I’m sure that will be my highlight as I hope to be reassured that the heart is still beating. I’m sick with worry. 2nd moment- signing papers for liquor license for the new bar and grill I’m opening. Yay!!!

Miss anything: buttoning my silver jeans and not being scared to have sex or the big “O”. Don’t ask me why. I know that doc said fine but I’m still nervous and apprehensive. Gve in to hubs once. Thank God he is patient and understands my anxiety.

Movement: I’m sure the babe is cutting a rug in there but I doubt I feel it. Every once in awhile I feel a blurb but I’ll chalk it up to gas :0

Food cravings: Italiano. All. Day. Everyday. Maybe some Mexican food in between. (And fruity pebbles). Hell I want everything.

Anything making you queasy or sick: just my ultra sensitive gag reflex. No nausea to warn me it’s coming though. Just a certain smell or for no reason at all I’ll dry heave for a second and feel fine afterwards. Weird

Have you started to show yet: not really. Can’t wait to though- maybe it would reassure me that things are moving along appropriately? Doubtful hah!

Gender: It’s a mystery still. Debating on finding out through chromosome test. Hubby thinks ultrasound would be more exciting for the reveal. Personally, I wanna know what to start shopping for!!!! Well, when I feel less scared about this then I’ll start shopping.

Labor signs: ummmmm no

Belly button in or out: In, and reallllllly hoping it stays that way. Eeeewwww

Wedding rings on or off: On.

Happy or moody most of the time: Those who know me say I’m moody but honestly I think I’m overall happy with a dash of fear and anxiety. Husband says I just seem more sensitive and cry more. Not like a mad or sad cry- like a “oh wow that commercial for Kleenex was so sweet” kinda cry.

Looking forward to: Actually showing and being less worried about this pregnancy ending. When will it end??!!

Purchases for baby: A handful of Dr.Seuss books and stuffed animals to go with the Seuss themed nursery 🙂 a friend of ours does interior design and I am SO excited to see what she comes up with. Just got a beautiful solid wood/ painted white armoire to go in there. How much? FREE!!! Gotta love friends. And speaking of purchases- I hope they make a toast costume for babies because hubby and I are bacon and eggs this year for Halloween. Next year we shall add toast 🙂