It’s GO TIME

Not due until next week but my son has other plans! Can’t believe after 10 years, our loss, and failed IVF, our angel is finally coming. I haven’t cried yet but I will…. Like ridiculously. Went from 0-5cm and just got that epidural I said I didn’t want. Yea- F it. I am not a bad ass and I’m ok with that!!!! Can’t wait to post his pics :)))

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Yikes 38W

Technically 12 days til “D” day. Arrival date is my late Grandmother’s birthday so as much as I want this to be done, it would be amazing for my son to share her birthdate.
I feel eh. Mainly the pubic bone pain makes me act like Chris Farley putting a small coat on when I try to roll over in bed, put pants on, or use my foot to swoosh my cat out of my way (he tries killing me by running between my feet). Mood wise I am scared and anxious of labor pains. My plan is to not do the epidural but I haven’t completely ruled it out either. I’ll cross that bridge when I get there.
The nursery is done now BUT our bathroom is another story. We found black mold so we gutted it about 2 months ago and it has been an ongoing project like that Tom Hanks movie Money Pit. It has been a nightmare. Both the tub and shower wall we ordered were delivered cracked or broken. Awesome. Drywall WAS my husbands gig years ago before joining the Army and becoming a police officer. Let’s just say he should stick to arresting people. God bless him but dayum. He has done a great job but not exactly the quickest. I am questioning the ceiling where I can totally see air bubbles in the seam tape. I shall not say shit or I’ll get the look. So whatever. I’m not a control freak (lies) but I do best when the house is in order. I do not function well amongst chaos and I’m freaking that we will be painting when I am tired and home with a 3 day old.
Ok. Enough about that- getting in and out of my Jeep is getting pretty damn uncomfortable these days. I LOVE my car but I hate the 4″ lift at the moment. My pubes feel like fire when I step in or out. I could drive the husband’s Tahoe buuuuuuuuut the last time I attempted that I smelled smoke coming from a tire. Why but of course!! The wheel bearing needs replaced because we have all the time in the world to jerk around with that. Needless to say it sits in the garage and we just use the jeep. Luckily he has a take home cruiser for work so he never rarely needs the Jeep and I have never been without a car. He refuses to take it to a drive thru (afraid a disgruntled somebody will spit in his latte or burger) or to the store or any other personal related matter. He firmly believes it is for work only. I’m sure some officers abuse that privilege but considering they put their lives on the line everyday at work I would say that using those cars in their own time is or should be a given perk… Also- police presence is sometimes enough to keep things chill in the surrounding area. Husbands point of view is pretty much- this is my office. I don’t want to sit in my office on my day off. I get it- but c’mon man!!!! My twat bone hurts so take the damn cruiser when we go out to eat or fix the Tahoe!!!!!!!
And then there is the bar/restaurant I am opening. F.
I intended for a soft opening prior to Super Bowl. Then I settled for a pushed back date of St.Patrick’s Day. But, between special order or back order for crap we needed or the basic hold ups from contractors…. Now I am looking at an opening date in about 4 weeks. AWESOME SAUCE. A 2 week old, training staff, setting up POS systems, ordering food and booze, being present for final inspection, and grand opening. This should be fun.
So there is life in a nutshell for me lately. I won’t even discuss my photography business because it had been non existent with all of the other chaos. That truly saddens me because I adore it. I need it. Ugh.
I know it sounds like I’m bitchy but in all honesty I am super stoked to meet our son in 12 days give or take. I’m so happy to see all of the recent success stories on here and I am also amazed at the strength of the women who have not found their answer yet. Every blog I read inspires me in some way or the other and I look forward reading updates when I can. To all of you- good luck, good vibes, happy moments, and all my love.
PS- I look like hell in this pic !!!! It was a long day, I was tired, and standing in office at bar that I can’t seem to finish!!!!!

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Hooyah!

What is an appropriate gift for your IVF doctor who gave you a child? I feel like we owe everything to them. Our regular doc was on vacation for attempt #2 and the 2nd doctor changed meds, transfer day, and number of embryos- success!! Even though the 1st doc didn’t make it happen he did the majority of the leg work!
Gift for husband? Bought him a Chris Kyle legend sweatshirt. The movie American Sniper really hit close to home for us. He was speechless when the credits rolled. He was an avid Kyle fan prior to the film and can relate on many levels after his 3 tours post 9/11. I never ask about things he did or saw and he never talked about them either. That movie made that can of worms pop wide open though! I am so proud of the man my husband is and everything he sacrificed for our country. Hearing the war from a soldier’s perspective weighs more to me than what all of these news an TV personalities have to say.
Gift for me? The same sweatshirt for the husband. 🙂
Throughout the film our boy rolled and kicked the entire 2+ hours. Hubby is convinced we have a future warrior on our hands. I can only hope that no matter what our son chooses in life, he becomes even half the man my husband is. He will be a lucky boy to have him for a daddy. Here is our latest ultrasound pic- we think he’s saying “Hooyah!!”

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26-27 weeks

Time is flying!! Nursery is slow going due to house remodeling projects we decided to finish first- suckers for punishment. My best gals started the baby shower planning and they plan on dressing like Thing 1 and Thing 2. Epic. They say they’re going with footy pjs but by the time it rolls around I bet money they’ll be opting for red shirts and a wig they can take off. Either way, I love these ladies and couldn’t ask for better friends. The theme is obviously Dr.Seuss and it is going to be amazing. We also decided to do a man friendly one. Hubby is in like Flynn. Free food and a ton of women= happy man!!
Going to get that nursery started asap. Meanwhile, I will be eating Golden Grahams (newest must have) man they get soggy fast!!!
Hoping to catch a movie with hubby this weekend but with all the work we have ahead us I don’t know if it’s in our stars. Drawing closer to the bar opening as well and dealing with these contractors have not become any easier. I loathe these guys and I have snapped several times. It puts them in check for maybe a few days and then I have to flip the bitch switch again. I intended opening Feb.1. I’ll be lucky if it’s March 1st now.
Anywho- back to the house, all we have left really is a full bathroom makeover. Like serious gut and redo. We were going to pass on the idea and buy a new home but we’ve decided to wait a year or two before stabbing a for sale sign in the yard. We love our home now but we look forward to being away from the city and the university. Hubby needs a break. After working on 6 off 3 rotations for 10 years on a midnight shift, he needs a quiet place to chill and not hear sirens, Notre Dame games (seriously can hear PA system in our yard on game day), thumping stereos, or people mowing their lawn at 8am when he didn’t even hit a pillow until 7am.
Here is my most recent belly pic:

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This boy is a MOVER!!! He boogies half the day away!! My anterior placenta hasn’t dulled the feeling much at all. Maybe he kicked it out of the way hahhaha
We are convinced he’ll be a bad ass like his daddy.
Gave the IVF clinic a ring to say hello to my favorite nurse and to keep her updated. I love them! So sweet to want to stay in touch like that instead of “K you’re pregnant! Bye bye!”.
Off to eat a brownie the size of my couch with a glass of milk the size of a water tower and then off to bed so I can wake up every hour with hip pain or public bone pain. (Yeah- that feels grrrrrrrrreat)
Man did I bounce around in this blog or what? Zero structure. I guess this is what my brain is like right now- scattered and all over the place. I need a new pair of converse- red.
That is all.
Kisses to those who love me and a finger to those who don’t.
And a huge wish of luck and love to the ladies’ blogs I still follow who are still TTC.
Until I have time to blog via iPhone again— be real, be good, or be good at it.

Nursery fun!

Before we knew if baby was boy or girl, I had my heart set on a Dr.Seuss theme because I loved the books growing up and I’m not a huge fan of the standard animal themes. Here is a sneak peek of the ideas we are incorporating

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The walls will be painted like this picture:

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Can’t wait to start painting! Still searching for that perfect dresser to match the armoire. I’ve found plenty of dressers but they haven’t been wide enough for a changing pad. Anywho, I can’t wait to post pics of the final finish!!! Operation nursery begins next weekend after we get through this nasty weather. Not feeling like driving around in this crap!